Mountains Wanted by Alexander Phoebe

Author:Alexander, Phoebe [Alexander, Phoebe]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2012-12-12T07:00:00+00:00

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Chapter 12

New Years

James had issued Sarah a rain check for the dinner at his house that had never come to fruition and on New Year’s Eve she decided to cash it in. He’d just returned from Ohio and she was missing him fiercely. Fiercely is not too strong a word, she realized, thinking about the nights she’d laid in her empty bed feeling such a deep longing, it was like a vacuum in her soul. And it wasn’t Pawel she was thinking about on those lonely nights, although she missed him for different reasons. Her longing had a definite trigger and it was James’ absence. There were times she’d toss herself from one side to the other, abruptly awakened by a flash in her memory, him hovering over her, the way his eyelashes looked when his eyes were closed, or the cleft of his spine delineated between the hemispheres of his muscular back.

On her drive to his house in Laurel, she had plenty of time to think. In traffic, it was a 40 minute trek. She couldn’t believe she hadn’t seen him for two weeks. She had spoken to him on the phone on Christmas and that conversation still echoed in her mind, particularly the part where she told him that Rachel had gotten engaged. “Wow,” he’d remarked and then fell silent. Sarah wondered if he thought she was telling him to gauge his reaction. She really had had no other motive than to share her best friend’s good news. Sensing his discomfort with the topic, she changed the subject quickly.

“How’s your newborn niece? Did you hold her?” she questioned.

James laughed, the tension suddenly diffused, “Oh, she’s really cute. Still doesn’t do much yet at this age. I held her for a minute and my sister took a picture.”

“Oh, I want to see!” Sarah cooed, trying to imagine his strong hands cradling a tiny baby.

Her GPS said she was getting close. She was still trying to formulate an image of him holding an infant. As much as they’d talked about themselves by this point, she had still not shared very much with him about her children. She wondered if he thought of her as a mother. He didn’t seem the type to be enticed by the whole MILF fantasy. After all, he rarely mentioned her children. She wondered if that was part of how he had compartmentalized her: she was just Sarah the Sex Goddess and perhaps Dr. Lynde, the sociologist. But the other huge part of her identity was motherhood. She wondered how he reconciled it with her other roles.

The night was cold and drizzly, with temperatures right on the verge of freezing but not quite cold enough to push the rain over the edge to solid precipitation. The car had finally gotten all toasty warm just in time for her to venture out into the brutal elements. She slowed down, reading the house numbers and searching for the right driveway, very nearly missing her turn. Her night vision was failing her, the black pavement was so shiny and reflecting.

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